David's Birthday

Today would have been David's 23rd birthday and I just wanted to share a few photos of him in his younger years. He was only about a month old in the first one and I'm not 100% sure about ages in the others, but I'm sure you can put a round about age to them. Today has really been a struggle for me and I think that I've been struggling more for Jane than for myself. You don't truly understand a mother's love until you have been a mother yourself. I cannot imagine carrying a child under my heart 9 months, feeling every little kick or hiccup, then being in labor for hours to give birth that child. Then spending the next 21 years loving him and caring for him. Nursing him when he is sick, singing him to sleep, making so many memories with him, just to have him ripped away within a moment's time. I could never fully understand why my mom had such a hard time on Andrew's birthday after he passed, but now I know exactly what she meant. They say that there is no love like a Mother's love and that is so true. But you don't realize it until you are a Mother yourself. Please keep Jane in your prayers. I called her at work this morning to check on her and she seemed to be holding up well, but you could hear the hurt and emptiness in her voice. I have only had Ethan for 14 months, but just the thought of losing him right now literally makes me sick to my stomach. I just can't fathom being in her shoes. I didn't give birth to David and only had him for one of his birthdays, she did give birth to him and had him for 21.... There is no comparison.