David and I met in 2004, but didn't go on our first date until October 7, 2006. I knew that night that I would marry him. I remember going home from our first date, and mom was in the laundry room. I walked in the room and she said, "How did it go?" My response was, "I'm gonna marry him. He doesn't know it yet, but I WILL end married to that boy." I don't think my mom really knew how to reply to that so it was a simple, "Well, we'll see." I didn't know it, but 10 minutes down the road, at his house; David was telling his mom the exact same thing. We were engaged 2 1/2 months later on December 25, 2006; and decided to set the date for 4 months later on the 7th of April.
As a stood at the altar saying my vows to the man I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with, it never occured to me that less than 6 months later, that "til death do us part" part of the vows could come true. I think we all enter our marriages taking for granted that we will be able to celebrate our first anniversary...I know I did. We had already made plans for an anniversary trip and all!! We were going to go back to the Biltimore House, which is where we went for our honeymon. We were going to have little Ethan then and it was going to be our first "family trip". We never got to take that trip...we never got to celebrate our first anniversary.
David and I may have only been married for 3 days shy of 6 months, but it was the best 6 months of my life. We had our ups and downs, just like any other couple, but I loved him with all my heart. The day I said "I Do" had been the happiest day of my life and the day I laid him to rest, the saddest. I learned a lot of things in those 6 months...things I need to change and things I need to keep the same. I do know one thing...if I ever get the chance to be married again, I will take time to "smell the roses". Let me just say from experience that we all tend to get so wrapped up in our lives and what needs to be done from day to day, that we never take the time to slow down and appreciate the people in our lives. Today, why don't you stop and take a minute to tell your significant other how much you love them and how much they mean to you? I had to learn the hard way that there may not be a tomorrow......
Shan I know this day has been hard for you. I've had you close to my heart all day. I am so sorry that the people you think may stand beside you don't. They are so wrapped up in their own lives they just don't have time to share in your pain.It is truly the people who have never had any pain that tend to act so heart less. Sometimes it takes pain to make us better people. I'm sure that somewhere down the road some of these same people are going to need you to be there for them. Hang in there and remember how much you are loved. You have gone through more than any girl your age should have ever had to go through in your life. Let it mold you into a beautiful person.God has a plan and it will be an awesome plan if you will just slow down and wait.
ReplyDeleteShan, I have had you on my mind a lot today! I am keeping you in my prayers. You are so special and God has a special plan for you. So sorry that you have had to go through all that you have!
ReplyDeleteLove you! Mel
Hey Shan, I hope you have a weekend full of love and support from family and friends! Hang in there. I love you! Laurie
ReplyDeleteI only just now noticed you have a blog. Your link is on FB. I know you've experienced a lot of heart break but I pray better days are ahead for you and Ethan.
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